My Weight Loss Story

So here i go again, I am 37 and weigh 130kg that 286 pounds people, this is my biggest weigh ever and I am disgusted in myself if letting myself get this big.

 

I have tried on many occasions to try and lose weight sometimes it was with my hole hart into it and sometimes it was just because i knew i use to love doing it but my heart wasn't in it.  When my heart was in it I found some success and then I got to comfortable or the event I wanted to look good for had passed and slowly old and bad habit would start creeping back in, you know what i mean one Macca's meal wont hurt once and awhile right??   Then that once and awhile turns into once a week then ill just grab a Macca's breakfast on the way to work.
Now I am not saying its Macca's fault that i put my weight back on, it was my choice to turn off and go through drive thou.  It was not just food i was making bad choice in, I use to love going to training, I would go to Step Into Life at least 3 Times a week or more, I love kicking the shit out of the bag, getting all my frustrations out, it even helped me get the anger out over the loss of my mum, at the time is was the one this that was normal and where i didn't have to deal with everything else going on around me.

So here is am worse off then were I started last time I thought I would give weight loss a crack. Now for me it is all about food and staying motivated to keep eating and eating the right kind of food, you see I have a bad habit of skipping meals, I could not eat all day then at dinner time i would grab some take way which then i would be even more hungry an hour or two later.  But on the other hand I have days where i can pick all day and usually its on food like chips, chocolate, soft drink and lollies, lets take Easter for an example, from my family and friends I got 5 Easter eggs, all in all not bad, not to many and enough to have a little binge on chocolate.  Here is where i shoot myself in the foot, this Easter I had the opportunity it go shopping at a chocolate factory outlet store, the could of chocolate i came out of there with was disgraceful.  After splitting some of it up into gifts for family and friends (the best Easter they have ever seen from me) I was still left with 3 x 100g eggs, 5 packets of 125gcaramello eggs and 100 medium size eggs, that's right a bag of 100 eggs and still eating them as snacks.

Where to from here???

Step 1 - Time to get rid of the chocolate. I need to lock them away or better yet give them away, they just need to be out of my sight.

Step 2 - Work out a food plan.  I need to sit down and work out what i am going to eat each week including snacks and stick to it

Step 3 - An Exercise plan. Now this is not my favourite thing at the moment as I am some what restricted in what I can do as I am still recovering from surgery in December last year, But I have phyiso exercises I do and I have talked to my trainer about coming back to Step Into Life.

Step 4 - Be Accountable. You can not do this will will-power alone, reward your achievements and recognise when you slip up and why. Going forward I am now accountable to all of you and myself.

I will be working on these steps over the next week and check in with you next week.

Talk to you soon
Miss P